Pardon my distracted writing. Have had a lot on my mind and I admit, I am watching basketball. I am a huge bball fan and usually watch at least two-three games a week. But it turns out when you are training for a sport you have a lot less time to watch sports.
Here's what I have been thinking about this week (in on particular order)
- While I usually work out as a way to stay healthy (physically and mentally), this week I found myself for the first time trying to stay healthy so I could work out. Working out was no longer the means. It was an end in itself. It felt great.
- I slept through one of my workouts this week. I did it alone later in the day instead of with the team. I didn't beat myself up for it. My body needed sleep. So I slept. I know for most people that seems simple, but that is not how my brain work works. I have never trusted my head to evaluate my body. And now I starting to be able to do it. It feels great.
- My foot hurt yesterday. So I went for a bike ride instead of running. I ran today. Tummy didn't hurt until mile seven. It felt great.
- I had to cut my bike ride short after an hour because my toes were so numb I couldn't feel them. It took a hot bath and about three hours for them to warm up. As a result, I finally bought a pair of bike booties and a windproof jacket. I have this fear of gear, a small budget and in all aspects of my life I have a really difficult time buying things for myself. Guess what? This felt great (will give you a review of the products once I have tried them). They weren't that expensive and I deserve them.
- I am finding social life outside of my tri team more and more difficult. Some of this is because I am so focused on the race training right now that it is all I want to talk about. Some of it is me realizing that with my new found mental stability right now I have some triggers that I just can't be around. I imagine this is a bit like when someone is in recovery. At first, many find they can't go to bars or be around their friends with whom they used to hang out with when they used. Sometimes that changes, sometimes it doesn't. I wasn't abusing drugs, but I wasn't always doing what was best for me. And now I feel like I am, but the "side effect" of that is often saying no to people. It doesn't yet feel great, but it feels right.
- I went to the local juice bar and had the best green juice of my life. It was great. I need to do that more frequently.
- Chris Paul is brilliant. Kevin Durrant is briallanter.
Labels: bike, friends, gear, juice